:The Uncoscious mind area which all the mankind has in
our deep bottom where keeps every impessions of actions
I received the invitation of this exhibition
two years' ago, and until now I experienced an unexpected
That is my mother's death. For everybody, mother might
be the dearest being, but I thought it' should be special
for my case. What happened to my precious mother who lived
with pure heart ? Why God or Budha could't save her ?
talked to myself many times and I struggled without any
Seeing her at the hospital, I concerned her weak breathing
day and night. I was occupied with deep grief and anger
to somethig what I don't know clearly. However, one midnight
at the bed side, I suddenly noticed that I was suffered
from myself. My grief, my anger, my anxiety, my repentance,
all of them are my belongings, aren't they ?
Though I was upsetting like that, my mother herself was
quite calm, without tears, shouts or anger, even after
the notice of her cancer. I've learned from my mother that
I shoud accept any matters as it is which occured around
me. She seemed like saying that something great looking
at me anytime, so I should trust it.
I thought that I need belief and resolution.
They are after all, the promise with myself without any
aren't they ? The Bible says "Unless a grain of wheat
falls into the earth and dies, it remains by itself alone.
But if it dies, it bears much fruit."(The Good News
according to John 12:24) I read this phrase by quotation
on the book by an Japanese Zen master named Sokou Morinaga.
That phrase often encourage me and telling me to be resolute
and to study everything.
The exhibition was held around
the first anniversary of my mother's death. I promised
to my mother by this work
to start again from the first step. So that the figure
looks like our Chinese charactor"1". This might
be my compensation for my mother. I wish all of her emotions
at the last period
of her life could be purified in the warm light like this
work, together with my emotions at that time.